Back to Work

I survived my first 2 days back at work! The day before I went back to work I was teary eyed and sad in the car on the way home from prayer retreat thinking about leaving my baby at home. I was quite sad the whole day but I managed to sort out the clothes I was going to wear, pack my pumping equipment and get some rest. Marc woke up at clockwork, whining at 6am and falling back asleep to wake up at 7am. I managed to pump, have breakfast, feed him, have our morning conversation and get ready for work. It was strange hopping back on the train, jostling with everyone else with the pump on my back and my handbag + a bag of snacks.

I almost forgot which floor I was on! I spent most of the day clearing emails, opening christmas presents, snacking and pumping. My current pumping schedule is 11am and 4pm. I'm really thankful we have a nursing room at work where I can pump comfortably. My supply has dropped a little. I haven't had to use any frozen milk, but I think I will have to soon enough. I came home to see Marc during lunch - I decided to ease myself into work slowly and come back to see him for lunch during this short week. He definitely doesn't miss me but he was happy to see me when I came home. He didn't smile at me at lunch today and my theory is that he knows Daddy is the one who's going to spend more time with him now...but I could be over-sensitive as he was happy to see me again this evening.

I'm thankful for understanding bosses who are not pushing me with a lot of work. They understand that my brain hasn't quite adjusted to work yet!

Being a working mum is a whole new ball game. I've got to be very efficient with my time. I don't get to lounge around much at night, cos I have to pump, pack my funnels and wash them so that I have enough for the next day, nap before pumping again at midnight then sleeping till 5-6am. I look forward to stopping breastfeeding so that I can sleep longer stretches again. But I will miss seeing his smiling face and bright eyes looking up at me whilst he's happily chomping on his milk...

Thanks to everyone for your encouragement the past couple of days! Things will get busy at work and its going to be more challenging as work piles up. I have been able to come home on time so far to catch Marc before his 7pm bedtime and even bathe him, but I don't think this will keep up on a daily basis especially when things hot up at work.